This past week has been trying for me, both physically and mentally. I have been having anxiety attacks, or small panic attacks really. I will get hot all over and my limbs will feel tingly, my chest starts to hurt and my throat seems to get tighter. I can't explain it and I don't know why it has to happen!
I got so freaked out Sunday at church I had to hide out in the bathroom for most the service, that's not embarrassing or anything. It will last for about an hour and then I'm extremely exhausted afterward. Monday morning I got up early and went to the doctor's office to see if they could shed some light on what was going on. My blood pressure was normal, and she drew some blood to check my liver/kidney function and my thyroid just to make sure. She did prescribe some low dose anxiety medicine that I take as needed, as I insisted I didn't want to take something everyday. There is no need to get hooked on something like that.
Well she called me today and said my blood tests came back normal and that I am perfectly healthy. That didn't help me much because now I"m wondering to myself, "Is it all in my head? Am I going crazy?" I sure felt like I was, and even today at one point I felt the urge to just break down! I don't know why and I can't explain it!
So here is my diagnose, if I can do that.... I have a wisdom tooth that is bothering me that really needs to come out but I haven't had to time to get it done, (and no, that is not just an excuse.) It may or may not be putting pressure on certain nerves in my jaw making my neck and jaw ache. (I have a bad habit of wondering what's wrong with me every time I have a twinge or little pain.) That's one possibility and I know the only way to fix it is to have the silly tooth removed (My worse nightmare)
Another possibility is that my.. (Please, I'm being very open here, if you don't want to read it then don't) My birth control pills are messing me up. I've been on them for a little over a year now and thinking back I have felt some of the side effects of it but I never put two and two together until earlier today.
So my solutions for my anxiety attacks? Here it goes; I don't really know if I want to change birth control pills, and the other options of contraceptives I don't necessarily agree with. I have been considering natural means of birth control, mainly because it would be healthier for me. And besides, if practicing natural b/c fails, its not that big of a deal ;)
I don't think I'm very healthy, (I'm going to tattle on myself) I try and only have one soda a day and I don't drink enough water. I"m going to start having three sodas a week, then eventually down to one a week. (I don't believe in quitting cold turkey because I've tried that and it makes the craving worse, and I like to reward myself sometimes) I do exercise but apparently two days of crossfit a week isn't enough, so I guess I'll start up walking/running again. That always seemed to make me feel better. I have also started doing some at home yoga exercises until I can find a yoga class to go too. I've also considered acupuncture, since that always helped me when I was younger.
So there it is, the changes I've made in the last couple of days. This has been hard on me guys, more than it probably should have but that's just how I'm wired I guess. Thanks to lots of support and the Good Lord by my side, I've been able to overcome it most of the way.
Ya'll have a good night, and sorry for the TMI!