Monday, June 18, 2012

A Much Needed Weekend Away

Long days and short nights call for a weekend away every now and then. Thank goodness we got to do that this past weekend. We made the journey up to New Mexico to see T's folks and celebrate his niece's 1st birthday! It was a small family affair, but fun none-the-less.

Friday I hustled around and got this ready to go on the trip. T had to work that morning, they branded calves at our house so he didn't have to get up as early, and they were done by 10. He then hustled around to get some waters check and we were in the car, loaded down, and on our way. Yes, I did say car... I've borrowed my mom's car because I thought I would be making the trip alone. Plus it gets good gas mileage, about twice as much as our beast dodge does.

Saturday morning Maw and Pappy watched K for us and we went into town for a "lunch" date. More like to run some errands but it was a date to me. When we got back we helped get ready for the birthday girl's party.

All the little kids went swimming, K even had his feet in the water and actually seemed to enjoy it! I think he will love the water like his momma does, at least I hope he does. He loves splashing around when he takes a bath.

I just love this picture! He doesn't like to smile for the camera but somehow I was able to snap one.

This is the more common face. He likes to "box" ya!

Saturday evening it rained so we went inside and visited into the night. Come Sunday morning after breakfast we decided to go to the Black River by Carlsbad and go fishing for Father's Day.

I don't know if he really enjoyed it there. It was kind of hot and last night when I was bathing him I saw that his little legs were slightly sunburned. Poor guy! Doesn't he look just adorable in his little sailor's hat and overalls? Haha!

We ended up getting home about 7 Sunday evening, which really wasn't bad. Reality set in though about bedtime when T's boss told him he had to be at a set of pens by 6 the next morning. Oh joy...

Hope ya'll have a great week.. and... the next post should be my recipe that I received in Ranch Girl's recipe swap! Yum Yum!!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Sunday Morning Blues

I am blue, down, and flat out mad on this beautiful Sunday morning.. I know I shouldn't be, I thank the Lord for such an amazing sunrise this morning. Why you ask? Am I in such a fowl mood... Because my husband's alarm went off at 3:30 this morning and he was gone by 4:30, off to do who knows what. This place we live on has decided to sell all but 500 head of cattle out of a 4000 head herd. They want to make the ranch strictly a hunting deal. The owner is wanting to make fancy enhancements to the hunting camps as a promotional deal to do business, and he needs the land that the cattle are on to ensure his guests get a deer or elk or whatever else lives out here. It's quite depressing really and has left us in a jam, sorta.

Now, before I continue, I mean no disrespect to anyone, I'm just stating my mind. 

For the past couple of months T has been looking for a new job. Besides the major changes that are going on out here, there has also been the management problem that he's been dealing with since day 1. He says they are a little bit different out here, and from the stories he comes home and tells me, I have to agree. We have been very unsuccessful in T's job hunt, which makes me wonder if we are to stay out here and tough it out.. Surly not. Since they have started to gather cattle, its been up at 4 am every morning, home at 5pm or later, in bed by 8pm, wake up the next morning and do it all over again for the past 2 1/2  weeks! without a break in between. I was fine with that for about the first week, until Sunday rolled around and and T was up early again. We thought for sure he would have Sunday off, since the foreman has until October to sell everything. And just so you know, if we were in the middle of a normal cow works, I'd be fine with no Sunday off. It's part of the job...

So this gets me to thinking. What if we are to stay out here, and how can we make it better. All the ideas I have are usually shot down, no they were shot down, all of them. Bottom line and the conclusion: we have to leave this place.

Ok, so I go to thinking again, this time with a little help from my dad. All the ideas we come up with, shot down in the long run. I will say they were given a little more thought but shot down none the less. Well I altered some of those ideas, got rid of a few and added a few and... I'm just waiting for them to be shot down too.

Can you tell that I'm thoroughly frustrated? I am, very much so! I've been praying hard about the ideas and what were supposed to do and I feel like I'm not getting any support. It's as if T wants to stay out here, like he likes to complain about how bad it is and how bad he wants to move... So I told him, you come up with some ideas of your own and we will maul them over. He did, but they were very far fetched. Guess you could say I shot them down, but all his ideas are nearly impossible for us to achieve at this time. At least the one's I came up with weren't so bad and could help us to achieve his ideas later in life.

I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself and should just suck it up that T's gone all the time. No I don't particularly like being out here by myself with K, or that T and I don't ever have any fun anymore, or.. that we don't go to church together anymore. Yesterday I went to a pasture roping that the church was putting on, only because T said I should. I hadn't intended on going because he couldn't go, but I went, and had fun, and got home with him slightly making me feel bad about going....

I love my T, I love him very much and I'm not saying he is the only flawed one here because he's not. I'm having a very hard time being patient about this whole deal...

But anyways, I'm sure your tired of my ranting and raving and my Sunday morning blues.. but I've had enough and I don't know what to do about it.